Today is day #3, let’s say, of prep. Hard to say as this decision has been a long time coming, but it’s been 3 days since the official decision to not renew our lease has come to fruition. Since I have been scouring the internet for income for virtual income opportunities to expand my business, and have been seeking out mini buses and RV’s to check out.
SBJ has been in touch with the Wheeling CVS a few times this week. A meeting with the district manager that was set for mid week ended up canceled, but there are emails circulating and things still appear to be promising. Awaiting news on our potential living space and what the availability may be….. but since all is up in the air and awaiting its correct placement/alignment in our lives, I spend today purging. That, at the very least, is something I can do and feel accomplished with. I can prepare things to toss and sell in a garage sale. I can package books to take to Half Priced Books to sell and I can donate clothes not needed. I am feeling like clearing the path, such as not renewing the lease, and purging the ‘stuff’ that clutters our lives contributes greatly to what needs to align for our future path. And each time I settle more deeply with this notion, I feel more comfortable with the unknown.
We are raised in a society where security comes in the form of a roof over our heads, money in the bank, jobs to collect such money, and food on the table. ALL of which we are throwing air to the wind and seeing where it may land. Having faith in the unknown that lies ahead can be scary has hell when you are responsible for five of the most precious beings on this earth. And, in that very same breath, it is exciting and exhilarating to trust so deeply that the universe will transpire to exactly what needs to happen for your happiness, health, love and well-being. This journey I embark on is a *massive* transformation of self. The type of trepidation I feel is a feeling I have not felt since I was a kid taking on new life-challenges. And with each baby step closer we delve, I’m over-the-moon at the fact that my children are experiencing such at such a young age. These trust, evolution, and adventure-making-moments will only inspire transformative futures for each and every one of them. This will reflect in their future life decisions, and hopefully…. a profound initiative to see each and every moment and opportunity.
Whatever the case and whatever may transpire, character building is never a negative thing. I am honored to be on this journey with the most amazing people in my life and look forward to seeing what transpires!