Today is day #3, let’s say, of prep. Hard to say as this decision has been a long time coming, but it’s been 3 days since the official decision to not renew our lease has come to fruition. Since I have been scouring the internet for income for virtual income opportunities to expand my business, and have been seeking out mini buses and RV’s to check out.


SBJ has been in touch with the Wheeling CVS a few times this week. A meeting with the district manager that was set for mid week ended up canceled, but there are emails circulating and things still appear to be promising. Awaiting news on our potential living space and what the availability may be….. but since all is up in the air and awaiting its correct placement/alignment in our lives, I spend today purging. That, at the very least, is something I can do and feel accomplished with. I can prepare things to toss and sell in a garage sale. I can package books to take to Half Priced Books to sell and I can donate clothes not needed. I am feeling like clearing the path, such as not renewing the lease, and purging the ‘stuff’ that clutters our lives contributes greatly to what needs to align for our future path. And each time I settle more deeply with this notion, I feel more comfortable with the unknown.

We are raised in a society where security comes in the form of a roof over our heads, money in the bank, jobs to collect such money, and food on the table. ALL of which we are throwing air to the wind and seeing where it may land. Having faith in the unknown that lies ahead can be scary has hell when you are responsible for five of the most precious beings on this earth. And, in that very same breath, it is exciting and exhilarating to trust so deeply that the universe will transpire to exactly what needs to happen for your happiness, health, love and well-being. This journey I embark on is a *massive* transformation of self. The type of trepidation I feel is a feeling I have not felt since I was a kid taking on new life-challenges. And with each baby step closer we delve, I’m over-the-moon at the fact that my children are experiencing such at such a young age. These trust, evolution, and adventure-making-moments will only inspire transformative futures for each and every one of them. This will reflect in their future life decisions, and hopefully…. a profound initiative to see each and every moment and opportunity.

Whatever the case and whatever may transpire, character building is never a negative thing. I am honored to be on this journey with the most amazing people in my life and look forward to seeing what transpires!


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It’s Final

Woke up this morning with a sense of peace about a MAJOR family decision.

We have just returned home from a magical month long adventure eastward. (I will post pics and adventure details soon!) While on the road we visited friends who live on a farm in SE Ohio. It just so happened there is a rental property on that farm that potentially we could rent in the very near future. We fell in love with the area, but more importantly the people of the community. During the trip we began investigating the potential move. It’s been the most serious we’ve been about moving with a pending lease renewal in a long time. Each year our lease has come up for renewal, let’s say in the last 5-6 years, we have a family discussion about it. We may even go as far as investigate potential move-to areas, but ultimately, we have stayed put. The cost of a move, the decision to move, the process….. just about everything about it has prompted us to extend our lease for “just one more year.”

This spring we asked for a short-term summer lease so we could figure out what we’d like to do. It feels like it’s really time but we just did not know when and where. Phoenix has always been high on the list, but we know absolutely no one there, it would be a vast difference, and let’s face it…. interviewing for jobs out of state is just pretty much impossible. And so moving would mean moving with a little moola to rely on, and that’s just never really been in the bank for us in the process.

So, coming up at the end of this month, our lease is over once more. We have the option of extending til spring of 2017. This last journey is one of many 4-6 week long journeys I have done with the kids. Each time I am on the road with the kids we fall in love with the adventure, journey, experiences and do not want it to end. I read about fulltimers through FB and blogs over and over with deep envy thinking ‘one day’….. but one day does not seem to be coming.

While we investigated this potential move SBJ was able to check out local employment opportunities and some things look promising. The hitch is that the rental home needs a great deal of work. Much of which does not appear to be able to be done by September 1st. So we are looking at least some sort of gap in housing. There are temporary housing options we could consider, but frankly I’m weary of moving a family of 7 just to have to move again in a short bit of time. While we await word on what may transpire on that end, we venture home and settle back into the typical (or not so typical) routine.

We’ve been gone a month. This is not the first time we’ve done these long adventures, as I mentioned before. This trip however was perhaps the last nudge needed to bring us over the cusp?! Driving back to Chicago I felt a growing sense of a deep dark lull I wanted to kick to the wayside but finding extremely challenging to do so. Instantly we returned, unpacked and showered, I was on the computer investigating ways that we just take off in 4 weeks. Just four short weeks, sell and store all we own and hit the road full time till things pan out as they may be intended!?!?! Sounds nutzo, eh?

BUT as I diligently look into vehicles we co-habit the idea feels more and more feasible! All I need to do is secure a vehicle larger than our van, and get rid of all of our SH#@! No biggie. Clear out and make way! I can do this! With no rent looming over our heads, this IS a feasible feat. (Of course is scares the you-know-what out of me!!!) But it IS feasible!

I lay down to rest last night and woke up with the massive rush of “YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” We CAN do this. This will work out. I simply need to tell our rental company “no” we are not renewing and ALL will fall right into place as it should. To hold onto the lease out of fear is what will hold us back from moving forward. So, we…… after 12 years of living here….. are *not* going to renew our lease. We are saying no to the tie, and YES to the adventure!


Now I gotta start purging!


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I love to creMeme1ate memes myself. You’ll see a few among my posts/pages. However there are SO many out there I find inspiring and insightful. I love to save them and share them. I love to reread and ponder. This one is particularly fresh to me at the present moment. I have typically lead my life to in such a fashion, but there are times where ‘stuff’ encroaches into your dome of peace and sets things off kilter a bit. Those moments feel off-setting and can often set you into a tail spin of negative feelings. It’s good to remind oneself that the outside negativity is not your own. When people or things or circumstance over-step their boundaries, it’s ok to take that few steps back and regain your inner/outer peace once again. Boundaries can be good and ever-so-healthy. I don’t know if there is a time when we finally master this, or if we need the challenges to become stronger in mastering this process. Either way, I am always grateful for peace’s return.



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Sony Alpha a7S

cameraSo I was working on a project and I had to decide on a camera, I was working on a budget of 12,000$ so I had to decide on a camera that is quick, high quality, and good lighting. I was looking around and I found the Sony Alpha s7S is fantastic digital camera, the quality is amazing as well as the Low-Light vision. The camera is perfect for independent filmmaking on a small scale (and small budget), the body alone has many features. This is a must have for cinematographers. The full frame sensor is absolutely amazing, and it has up to 120 fps, amazing for wide shots. It was an excellent addition to the film, and it ending up working great. I highly recommend this camera!

~ Review by Saikouba Entertainment

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Today my big kids wanted to go off and be the big kids that they are so I took advantage of the time and took my littles to the zoo. Lincoln Park Zoo is a great location for a summer afternoon. We started at the farm this time around because we always seem to start near the conservatory and not make it to the second half of the zoo. This time we started that end and worked our way back to the Pritzker Family or Kids Zoo….. by that point they are pooped and can’t go on any longer. We had the most yummy ultimate nachos for our snack at the little cafe area, and after hearing the wolves howl in tune to the passing city fire engines (only in Chicago!), we headed over to the park to get a last run-around before climbing back into the blue bus and heading back to pick up the big kids. It was a pretty sweet day….. aside from my sweet M whining every second for food. Once those nachos hit her belly she as back to her usual self! 😉 I know you call can relate to those moments when you’re wee-one is whining up a storm and your thinking, “why on earth didn’t I just stay home?” And then your mommy senses kick in and you realize…. feed that stinkin’ belly! Wowza! Now why didn’t I just think of that before all this? 😉 Yeah, then you learn your lesson (for the millionth time) and enjoy the rest of the day in bliss. Happens to all of us! Been there…. done that!

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Fallen in Love

Yep…. all over again…. this time… with a bus.

I have been poking around trying to figure out what kind of vehicle we could potentially take off and spread our nomadic wings in come the end of the summer. This evening on Craigslist I found ‘the’ bus. I never would have thought I’d choose this sort of vehicle. I did not want anything too big and have been, consequently, seeking out larger vans, oversized vehicles in nature that we could tweak for our needs. I had been toying with RV’s in nature, but not really feeling the maintenance vibe of it all. So nothing has grabbed me quite yet. I also had been eyeing this Ford Transit 350 at Carmax, but that would just mean another loan. I’m not too keen on adding cost to the adventure. I was kind of hoping to free us from burdens. Many burdens. As many burdens as possible.

So, this evening, I was poking around yet again…. sniff sniff….
Low and behold, I see this beauty. A real beauty. I have fingers and toes, and hairs, and tails, and whatever else could possibly be crossed…. trust me they are crossed. I am plotting and manipulating…. there must be a way to smoothly make this happen. Sell our precious beauty of a blue bus to acquire this beauty of a red-striped 15 seater bus. Of course, this is provided I actually get to see it, drive and still continue to be in love with it. But I’m already fantasizing over the idea, the pics, the hope, the dream. I can see us in this beaut’! It’s the first that I can truly picture and the first that feels right in my bones. The price, the size, the everything…..

Keep all of your fingers and appendages crossed for us. Hopefully we see it this weekend in which case things may move quickly!! And even it it’s not this particular one… I feel ever-so-happy to have this feeling of ‘right’ cause now I feel like I know where I am headed in this decision and what will work for us. Yippee!!!

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